I Need My Princess, Because We Are A Fairy Tale

I cant believe that just a few months ago, I was looking in your eyes, listening to "White Horse," and telling you how bad I wish i could kiss you, because you had mono, and I wasnt sure if it was ok yet. And then you look in my eyes, and you tell me "Go ahead, it's ok." I remember that so clearly, it was the most perfect kiss ever. And now...now I dont have any of that...and I cant even write about you and I without getting butterflies and getting worried. I miss you, and i dont know what to do right now. I know what I want, and I know what you want.

I just cant wait to have it again. That feeling...the feling of being Loved, cared about, stared at.

Remember the post "What Do I See?"

That was for you. And it was true. And it's all I can see and hope for. Don't leave forever. Please dont. I wont make it. Because if you were to ask me "Do you love me?" my answer would be an immediate yes. And for whatever reason, in my mind it seemed like a good idea to listen to "White Horse" by Taylor Swift. And then all that kept playing through my mind was holding your head and smiling oh so big. And now...now im left dangeling. Because I cant go to you and tell you this. I cant, see you today or whenever and tell you about it, and smile because you look at me and just kiss me. I cant have any of that. And I feel the need for it. I need you in my life Kaitlin, and at the same time I cant handle having you there unless we are what we were. Whenever I see your picture, or I hear you, or talk to you, or anything at all...I just melt. I fall apart. I get queezy, shakey, cold. I miss you. I miss you so much...

Why me?

- BeeJ