Seriously, I know I have grown up. I can feel it when i try hard enough to focus and just think. And its hard to accept that I'm alone right now, something that I didn't think would ever happen again. But I am here, I'm on that road, and i have to go down it until i find a fork in it. And when that time comes, I know it will be the right choice that I make. And at the same time, I know it wont be as easy as that. With all this power that i now have in the school and over my class, a lot rests souly on me. I guess I'm the person to look up to, and I am totally ok with that. But I am the kind of person to worry, and I worry about my friends, including those who have moved on past high school, and those who haven't. I wonder where their path's will lead them, and I want to make sure that they chose the right things, and don't have difficulties. I want to make this last year the single best year ever, hands down, and I believe i can do it. Maybe not by myself, but I know it can be done. I just worry, you know? I'm not sure if I really should worry about everyone, because I know sometimes i shouldn't because it can be a little much, but lately, that's all i have been able to do is worry for people. I really just don't have any one person to focus on...I need that again, in a bad way. I miss it a lot, I wont lie. But I'm keeping my head up, or at least trying.
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I still cant believe that was the last band camp...I really cant. As much as I never thought i would, i know i will miss it. And the worst part is that i never really got to do any of the band camp stuff at all because of my bum leg...I feel so bad just sitting there you know? I try and help people and they accept it, but at the same time i feel like the guy who barks orders and never does anything but that...its a terrible feeling let me tell you...
Grown up? I'm not sure if we all are. I know in some aspects we all are, yes, but not in every way. There is always more to improve on. So here's to the Class of 2010. May our last year be the greatest year yet, and may we always remember it till our dying breath. I hope i can accomplish everything we want in a Senior year, and I hope you all stick along for the ride. Lets make this year full of many "Lasts" some of the greatest times of our lives. To my other friends, I am always here, if there is anything I can ever do, in school or out, please let me know. I'm always a call/text away, and will do anything for you.
After re-reading that, all I could think to myself is how i went from the selfish, video game kid in 6th grade, to the guy who only cares about Love, whether its talking about it, being in it, or helping others with it. Grown up? Yes
After reading this, look at yourself, Senior or not. Have you grown up? Matured? Anything? Post it here in the comments. It can remain anonymous if you choose, so please, share some thoughts =]
Humbly Yours,
BJ Nelson
I Love You
