Quote Binge

I'm gonna go on a quote binge really quick, just because I'm bored ;)

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“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

- David Harkins

“One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.”

“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”

- Morrie Schwartz

“One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.”

- James Earl Jones

“There are four questions of value in life... What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.”

- Don Juan deMarco

“It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride.”

“The one who loves you will make you weep.”

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I like those quotes =] And I'm in a quote-ish mood, so that's why I posted them. But i really wanted to write for three reasons. One, because i haven't written in quite a while, and I feel the need to. Two, because I have a massive headache, and this always helps. And Lastly, I wanted to reflect on something I said earlier this week. My own quote, if you will.

"Your heart will never lead you down a wrong path. Just some that will be tougher then others. And when that happens, ill be there, no matter what the circumstances or who you are. Always follow your heart."

No matter what we are dealing with in these lives of ours, whether it's Love, friendships, jobs, or anything at all for that matter, follow your heart. It wont ever lead you down the wrong path. It will lead you down some tough paths, that much I can assure you of. But it wont ever be something you cant handle, or aren't meant to get through. Everything does happen for a reason. That saying in itself sounds...cheesy. But yet its really so honest. Everything does happen for a reason. Is there a plan for each and every one of us? I cannot be sure of that. All I know, is that we have to depend on each other to help each other through these lives we live. Keep your friends close, and choose your friends closely. Sometimes, your "friends" wont really be who they seem. Just keep those who really matter close, because they're the ones you can always depend on. They are the ones who will help you when that path does get tough. Everyone will always have that very small group of people that they can forever and always depend on. Just don't lose sight of tat group, because some day, you may need them. And someday, they may need you. Just don't give up on them. On anyone.

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To "You",

I won't give up on you. I wont abandon you. I want to see this through, and I will. And I have a feeling that it will only bring good things in the end. Because you're pretty, and fun, and amazing =] Both of you =]] And there is a lot more I could say, but I'll leave it at that for now. Unless you want me to continue on about it all.

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I don't have much else to say. So I think I'll leave it at that. Lets just hope that everything works out for everybody. =]

Yours,

BeeJ

*Sepcial Thanks to Kristin Ludwick and Mary Wills for the crazy awesome picture!*

I Had A Dream..

Last night, I came home from an exciting day of Cedar Point. I eventually made my way up the 17 or so steps, stumbling on two near the top. After getting getting yelled at, not because I did something wrong, but because my mom felt the need to take her rage out on me, I somehow rested my pillow which seemed to ease all the pain driving for an hour and forty-five minutes had brought upon my body. After making sure Kristin and Aubrey had gotten home safely, I began to rest my head on my pillow, only to realize ten minutes in that I had forgotten to brush my teeth. I got up and began to brush my teeth, looking at myself and saying in my mind, "Was there more? Was it really as innocent as we planned? Can it be more?" Those two questions ran through my mind, maybe two more times each. I slowly "glide" to my room and fall asleep. I say glide because I honestly don't remember walking. I fall asleep, and begin to dream...

We're sitting on two white rocking chairs, on the front porch of our house on the sands of a beach somewhere in the south. The ocean smell is flowing through my nostrils, and the sun is shining brightly still as a glass of lemonade rests in my hands. As children often do near water, there are three little children near the bank of the ocean, playing in the sand and water. Your hand reaches over and grabs mine, and although I don't look over, I smile to myself, and you laugh a little and say, "Why did you smile like that? I haven't seen a smile like that in years." I smile even bigger saying, "Because, I just remember thinking about living like this for a long time, and now I'm here, together, with you." As I turn my head to glance over at you, the dream blurs, and all I see is the outline of a girlish figure, reaching up to, I'm assuming, tuck hair behind her ear.

This dream has been on my mind all day, mainly because of how vivid it was and how clearly I can remember it. All day, my mind has been wondering, who are you? Where are you? Why are you waiting? All I know is, whether I have met you already or not, you're out there, and I know someday I will "tie the knot" with you. Truthfully, that day cannot get here any sooner, but I'm going to eat my own words and live day to day, and not hope for the future. When I feel the need for the future to arrive for whatever reason, I just think back to that old man I saw one day back in June who had no legs at all, and yet was running. When will my last day be? That can never be determined for certain. But I have to live day to day, as everyone else should. But I also must say that I can't shun the feeling of Love again, because it's a really wonderful feeling. Indescribable really. I've seen a friend recently lose someone, who although they didn't date long at all, think that she couldn't ever Love again because of how bad it hurts to lose that feeling. I also had another friend lose someone who they did Love for a very long time, and they seem to be back on their feet with...well, most of the things in their life. Don't be afraid of it. It's hard to heed those words, even for me, but don't be afraid.

Well, I think I'll wrap it up there...

Where ever you are, whoever you are, all I know is you're out there. Somewhere. And you may not ever read this, but please, don't wait to long ok? =]

Humbly Yours,
BeeJ

Wisdom? Maybe?

So I was talking to a really good friend the other day. One of those people that you don't expect anything..motivation/inspiration/philosophical to ever come out of their mouth. Well after some conversation on the matter of girls...

"bj, its not that god doesn't want you to... its just he doesn't think your ready yet"

In a way, it made my day. In another way, it made me realize how much I can depend on him. And in another way...

...It made me realize he's right...

I'll leave it at that.

Yours,

BeeJ

*Very Special Thanks to Brian VonLehmden*

Who Are We?

There comes a time when you realize that your life is meant to be laid out in a certain way. That you are meant to fulfill a role in someones life. Of course, everyone has a role in someones life, whether its taking care of the Love of your life, or just being there for a friend or family member when they need it the most. I know that everyone on this planet has some kind of role in someones life, but I also think that everyone also has a specific job in one, or possibly more, persons life.

The Giver: You tend to put yourself last. You look after someone in particular, someone who will stand out in your life for the rest of it. You take care of this person in their times of need, and even if they somehow manage to slip away from your inner circle of friends for a period of time, you still silently keep an eye on them, knowing that they may need your guidance in the not-so-distant future. You're the one that anyone could always turn to, and you're willing to do anything for a friend. Whether it means being up till 3:30 AM, knowing that you must wake up at 6, or driving through pouring rain, you will be there to help them in their time of need. At the same time, it may be hard for you yourself to heed your own warnings and advice. This is the only downfall to this trait, and this is what makes you special.

The Taker: As much as people may tell you that giving is better then receiving, you're the kind of person who takes as much as you can from your vast number of friends. You don't judge, and you like to expand your friendships as far as they can go. Having so many different friends in so many different cliques and groups, you learn a lot about different people, and it makes you someone easy to talk to. You may not know it, but people look up to you and respect you because you are such a nice person. But you're like any other person, you do pass judgements about some people, but you keep it to yourself, and you don't let those judgements keep you from trying to meet new people. With all these people around you, there is never going to be a time that you wont have friends there to help you and support you. The problem with this trait is that you have so many friends that it is hard to keep in contact with them all, and sometimes, friends can clash putting you right in the middle of the battle. But this is what makes you special.

The Fighter: In you're life you have had to fight for many different things. Whether its friends or even property, you never give up easily. This makes you attractable to some people, showing that you will do whatever is necessary to ensure protection and quality. Not quality as in a quality tool or vehicle, but quality in the sense that you possess things that a lot of people don't now-a-days, and this makes you at least seem genuine. The problem is that, as a fighter, you've had to learn how to make people like you and trust you, and although this is a plus most of the time, it can sometimes lead to some bad occurrences in your life. For the most part, though, you are a good enough person, just watch the temper, and you will see success through leadership and companionship. Despite having the temper, this is what makes you special.

The Quitter: You have gone through life just like The Fighter, down the long and winding road that few have to go down. And unlike the Fighter though, this makes you vulnerable. You are easily scared and when something does frighten you, you tend to run away, ruining a lot of things for you. Relationships have always been hard for you in this sense. Whenever you felt threatened or like you losing something that you cherish, you frighten and run. Sometimes, its not a literal run, but you do something that wasn't the smartest idea. But although the name may suggest it, you never do actually quit. You get right on the verge of quitting, and you pick yourself back up to keep drudging on, and this is what makes you special.

I found a lot of enjoyment in writing that for some reason. I'm sure I will have a few other posts like this with various other types of people, as they come to mind.

That was fun =]

Yours,

BeeJ

*Special thanks to Mary Wills!*