There are some days that just make you look back upon the day and be thankful for such great friends and times. Ran in the snow today with Marissa down Blair Road in Perry. Great and exhausting run in 20 degree weather in the wind and what not. Almost got hit by 2 Snow plows. Learned that my spit will freeze in seconds. Pretty cool. Very fun =]] Cant wait for the run this weekend, and definitely cant wait to do that run again, even if my face did freeze.
But its days like this that make you wonder what if? What if it would work? I’m not sure what would happen, but im ever so curious. I mean, best friends can make the best relationships. Right?
Maybe im crazy…
Maybe im not…who knows. All i know is that today i figured out how much i care when someoneeeee rolled their ankle and i didnt like the idea, at all, of someoneeeeee running back 3 miles on it and wanted to carry them. Felt so bad afterwards, you dont even know, it was bad lol.
It’s better to have tried and failed then not tried at all, right?
I dont know, its been a crazy week so far, finished my research paper though, so that was a plus, just gotta get my last draft back and fix some of those last few corrections. Im excited, 16 pages of glory, and im so happy its done.
Just cant get you outta my mind, its killing me!
Someone told me i might be over thinking this, but i dont think i am, at least i hope im not. I just want something new and great, that i know inside me will be amazing =] That’s all. But maybe it is too much. I just wish i knew the answer.
I guess we all just have to take it one stride at a time and hope for the best, just like running, one step at a time. Can’t predict the future, so may as well stop worrying about it. All you can do is focus on the present and hope for the best. Well, im hoping for the best right now, and hoping it all comes together.
Current Music Favorite:
Jay-Z
Kid Cudi
Brad Paisley
Drake
Lil’ Wayne
Brian McKnight
Hope everyone's having a great holiday season! I’m sure ill be on soon, i went far to long without writing, but Happy Holiday anyways!!
Although today was my first time running in about 5 weeks, (7:49 average mile for 4 miles =] ) it seems like just when i was enjoying having some time to myself, its back to real life. Everything is starting back up, Triathlon training, jazz band, Student Council is getting busy, and somewhere in-between I have to find time to work as well.
(I hate changing garbage can bags by the way…)
Lets see, Mondays, I have training (Running) then homework till who knows when. Tuesdays; running and then swimming, so ill be getting home late…Wednesdays are another late night; I have meetings on these days, and then I have training (running) and then straight to jazz band. Thursdays are a repeat of Tuesdays, and Fridays are a repeat of Mondays. Saturday and Sunday, i have to run and bike. Busy busy busy.
I guess I like being busy though. Keeps me occupied and focused. Although it does make it hard to enjoy the little things sometimes. I guess I miss the little things, although I haven’t had anyone to enjoy the little things with in quite a while (On another note; Friend Zone…yeah, it sucks). I’m still looking, but i’m not looking to hard, im gonna go for the “come to me” approach i guess from now on. I’m just so busy, its hard to keep looking, but ill find her in due time right? … Right?
Lets hope so…
Currently reading Moby Dick for Stavar’s class, lets hope its not so bad…
“Victory is sweetest when you’ve known defeat”
- Malcolm S. Forbes
I wanna make it to districts (at least) in the 2 Mile this year….I want it bad, and im workin my butt off to get there.
Every turn in the right direction seems to lead to one that’s the wrong direction, and its not even remotely entertaining anymore. I just cant take it, its so frustrating. I get sick and diagnosed with mono, then get better from the sick, not the mono though, and then two days later im sick again. And then once more, which brings us to the present. So currently, i’ve been sick three different times in about a three week span, and have had mono since about June. Wonderful…
On top of that, I have people in my life who don’t seem to care anymore. Or, rather, one who cares and is trying to change for the better (I thank you)m and one who doesn’t seem to care. I honestly never though i’d see this happen, but it’s killing me inside see it, and I don’t know what to do, yet at the same time I know I can’t do anything to help the situation…I hate not being able to help. I guess ill have to hope that somehow they see this and figure it out. Let’s hope it get better…soon.
“Time heals all”
Although i’m sick, I cant help but be excited for this indoor triathlon i found out about (http://osutriathlon.com/indoorTri.html). It sounds like a ton of fun, and I really hope i can find some people to do it with me. But, i need to get better first, and i plan to.
I’m home alone right now, and I feel the need to write about whatever pops into my mind. The first thing…
This mono sucks big time. Not only do i feel lazy as all hell because I have to come home right after school and am not allowed to workout for 3 weeks. Wonderful…It sucks though because its my release and I cant do it. =/ More then that though, im still disappointed about my season overall, but that’s for another day. I guess this just means ill have plenty of time to do some homework and reading that i need to catch up on. Why does life have to suck like this? I dont know either, but all i do know is that Kenny G is amazing, which i am watching a concert of on tv.
Still unsure of a few things right now. I guess i dont know what i want, but im sure that will come in time. All i do know is that an answer has to come at some point, and im eagerly awaiting that answer. While i wait for it though, im finding it quite enjoyable to write my research paper everyday. Its fun to write about why Love is much more than an emotion. Maybe im weird for thinking that, but hey its what i like so oh well. =]
Well, i havent been able to write at all lately because i have been so busy! And of course ive been meaning to write for a while now, so lets do some reflecting on the past month or so.
So since i last wrote, a lot has happened and/or changed. I turned 18 =] And that was exciting..kinda. Nothing much happened, but i did get a really nice laptop, so that was nice. My running has been going pretty well. I wanted to say this for a while now, but again i havent been able to take time to write, but i just feel like something has finally clicked and im finally finding what’s inside me. this weekend is the last meet, and i guess its all gonna be put on the line this week so that i can really see what is there. Hmm..what else. Homecoming was cool. It was…different, i guess. I enjoyed it though. Oh, yeah, apparently i’ve had mono since like, June. Yeah, for a while now i was suspecting that, but hey what can you do right? Just keep moving on. So now im sick and have mono…its been a wonderful week lol.
Other then the mono, things in my life just seem to be lining up again, finally. Im not sure why, but everything kinda seems to be going in the right direction. I dont want to jynx it, so i wont linger on the subject, but it feels nice to have things going…decently well for a change. Lets just hope it continues this way yeah? I just hope it continues…because i enjoy it. And with XC ending, its gonna suck =/ I love this sport, and i dont want it to end at all. Thats why im determined to finish this week off, my last week, even if i am sick. I told Sarv, Coach, “I dont care if it kills me. At least ill die happy. I’d have to be physically unable to get out of bed to keep me away from that race.”
Lets hope for a good race…
“ And the strength of the wolf is the pack.”
You know, all these college applications and information meeting and stuff are making me anxious…Not to leave, but to just get it all done. It’s stressful…Oh well, no matter how stressful things may get at times, i always find time to run and write, and it always seems to make me feel better, so ill just stick to that. It seems to work. Before i go though, wanted to share this video, or rather this singer. He is an amazing singer, and i just thought i’d share it with everyone for their…viewing pleasure.
Time seems to be going by so fast. Too fast at times, and Ive been so busy that i haven't written in about a month. It's just crazy!!! But hey, that's my life right? And at the same time, I like the craziness. I'm not really sure why, but i feel better when im moving all the time and doing stuff. As much as it wears me down and drains me, I like it.
So im still on the hunt for a homecoming date...not going so well lol. But hey, that's life, and ya gotta take it one step at a time right? Kinda like cross country...but lets not talk about that...actually, lets.
This past weekend i realized that i think far to much when I race. I just need to go out there and do it! It's stupid, but I think its the one thing holding me back. I want to get better then i was pre-injury. And it took Sarvis to tell me that he is gonna take my brain out to get it through to me. Well, no more thinking, just writing.
So thats my life in short. Lately i've had maybe an hour to myself a day, and by "myself" i mean do homework and stuff. And im getting very exhausted...Keep fingers crossed i dont get mono. Lets hope i can keep up with it all.
This is something i wrote for my Decision for Life class. It was an essay that was supposed to describe the different types/forms of love. So have at it.
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Love - With a Capital “L”
Love: –noun
1. A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person
2. Sexual passion or desire
Is that really true? Can one even begin to put a label or definition on such a strong and meaningful word? It just doesn’t seem quite possible. Love takes so many different forms, so many shapes. To some, it may mean physical attraction or emotional attraction or possibly even something that someone does every day, such as a fluff of the hair or smile. It’s the little things that draw people to one another. The imperfect things. It’s physically impossible to be perfect, which makes me a firm believer that it is all the little things that make you imperfect that makes someone begin to fall in Love with you. It’s such a strong feeling, and it cannot be described, but there are many different aspects that make it up, the first of which is Physical Love.
Physical Love is the first thing that sets any feelings off, period. It’s the look of that person, the way they smile. Their eyes. The outside of the entire package. What is on the outside may not mean everything, or even anything in the end, but it has to mean something at some point, because it is the single thing that draws you in. The way they look at you, the way they touch you when they’re happy, and the way they tremble when they’re sad. It’s the way they look you in the eye and smile sometimes, for no seemingly real reason. The way they can make you feel when you touch their lips, or they touch yours. Physical connections are so very important. This person needs to be able to make you feel good when you’re alone, and even when you’re not. But loving someone is much deeper then skin, but it all starts somewhere, and it has to start by being noticed. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but beauty cannot be everything though, there has to be more. There has to be a deeper connection tied down to emotions.
Emotional Love is that butterfly-like feeling you get when you kiss them, or hold their hand. It’s that sensation of being rushed into a wave when they say “I Love You,” for the first time. Emotional Love is being able to say something that makes them cry in happiness and then smiling because you can physically see how much it mean to them. Emotional Love is being able to say “I Love You for who you are,” and being able to pick your partner up even when they are at the lowest depths of their life, because you Love them, and you would do anything to make sure they are happy and well. Emotions involve so many different factors. It means not cheating on them, staying faithful, and never lying just to benefit yourself. Truth itself is one of the biggest factors in a relationship because it builds the biggest factor, trust. Without trust, Love cannot form, it cannot stay, and it can never be. Being emotionally settled means you’re comfortable with just being yourself and your physical being, knowing you aren’t looking, what you consider to be, your best. Your emotions are, in my opinion, the biggest factor in a relationship, and they are something that cannot be damaged, or the relationship will be hurt as a result. It’s the fact of knowing that you’re loved, that you’re cared about, and that always have someone to run to. Some people don’t see a relationship as an emotional bond, but a physical bond. Some people just need that emotion bond to be happy, and like wise for a physical bond. It all depends on the person, but sometime it needs to be more then that.
Social Love is knowing that you can be with the love of your life, and their friends and still be comfortable and happy. Knowing that someone’s friends accept you can really make or break your relationship, because if you can’t get the friends approval, it’s bound to be a tough road for the both of you. Your love would have to go through a lot of torment from constantly hearing friends say how they don’t approve, and things of that matter. Of course, if your love is strong, it can always last through anything and everything that life throws at you. But for a lot of couples, having a friend’s approval, at the very least, a best friend’s approval is a key factor in a relationship. It’s just like having a parent’s approval. If your parents don’t approve, the road will be a very tough road ahead, but again, it can be overcome like anything else in a relationship, as long as your love is true and strong, it will always endure.
Recreational / Aesthetic Love occurs when two people are just together, with family, friends, or no one at all, and are just enjoying the time together doing things that make them who they are. Whether it’s playing games, running around the mall, or just watching movies, this love occurs when two people are simply being their selves. Having fun together and not having to be alone all the time is something that will bring two people together. Doing aesthetic activities bring people closer, and open them up, possibly, to a world they may have never known. Sometimes, finding new things out like this may frighten couples, but it can also bring couples together in the end. You do not, though, have to have the same interests. With all things considered, if the only thing a couple can agree on is a decent singer/song writer, things are going pretty good.
Intellectual / Religious Love is being able to talk to your partner and not be afraid of sounding dumb, or even too smart. The key to a relationship is communication, and if you cannot have a decent conversation that intrigues you, how can you ever hope to have a relationship that can fix things when times and troubles come arise? Along with having these conversations, religious values often times come into play. It may not be important to all, but some people find it to be a very deep and difficult subject that they find to be sensitive to them. If you cannot agree with someone like that, it may not work. But, once again, it can always work if you want it to. You both do not have to have the same religion, or even go to the same church. Wanting a relationship and someone to love will always come over small faults such as this.
Love, with a capital “L.” I think love is too strong of a word to not pay attention to like that. In our language, we capitalize all the words we find to be important; names, places, holidays. Isn’t love important? I think it is far to over looked as something taken for granted, and needs to be taken a little more seriously in that respect. Whether we are talking about love in writing or not, our body will always be the forefront for love, and it will endure all the battles love can throw at it, almost as if our body knows that in the end, love will be the best thing to step into our lives, and the only thing to never leave.
Love Bears All Things, Believes All Things, Hopes All Things, Endures All Things.
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